Part Two of MCSE

September 5th, 2005 by insidethemindofcx

DULL! That’s sums up today’s class. Today was the day we learnt what was so special about Windows Server 2003. Man, can that guy bore his students. Name’s Leon. I mean he’s a nice guy and all but when it comes to teaching, he kinda sucks. Most of the time he does mistakes that a well-trained trainer wouldn’t do. Even to configure the TCP/IP settings he required another colleague assistance. Embarassing was the word that came up when he did that.

But overall he was a good trainer in project management topics especially. I don’t think he’s that good in Windows Server 2003. Maybe he’s one of those people who are just chuck into training us. Yeah, no doubt he’s a certified trainer in almost every field that the big M (Microsoft Corp, ppl…seriously) can certify, no-one is that good in all of them. Ahh, I guess beggars can’t be chooser since all of this is done by the centre. If I had a chance to choose, I would have picked the previous trainer. He was more knowledgeable.

~Life is truly unfair~

Negotiator Expert?

August 30th, 2005 by insidethemindofcx

Hmmm…I just completed a course on negotiation skills but I don’t feel like I’ve learnt a lot since the trainer said that we used negotiation skills all the time. It’s just that we don’t realize it. Kinda stupid aren’t all of us?

He begun by explaining the definition and the different kinds of outcomes that results from it. The thing that attracted me the most was that one of the outcome was compromise. Giving in to other people’s needs. On top of that, both parties must do the same. In our unfair world today, compromise is always meant for only one side of the party to give in. Isn’t it an ironic meaning to use for such a perfect outcome? I mean if compromise means BOTH party must give up something, shouldn’t it be reflected in the real world also?

Another one that I realize is that the trainer doesn’t seem to read what he gives out during class. He assumed that the assignment he gave is the same as what he knows. Oh well, I guess he has had SO many experiences that he forgot to focus on certain small details. The whole class was in a daze when he started to refer to an entirely different outcome as what is written in the assignment. Nobody is perfect even for an expensive trainer. I heard that trainers like him get paid like around RM200 an hour. And all he has to do is talk. Even if it’s crap, no-one would know since the people he trains are either dumb or unknowledgeable about the stuff he’s teaching.

Now all I can think is what can I teach to others that is worth RM200 an hour. Any ideas? :P

Too expensive?

August 27th, 2005 by insidethemindofcx

Currently in class for the Cisco course. The trainer looks like an exact copy of Nobita in Doraemon but except this guy is smart in what he is teaching and he doesn’t whine. Unlike Nobita who always end up asking Doraemon for help. (Jap Anime fan here!) He was pretty boring. And I mean like dead boring. For a course on network, I thought it would have been abit more lively but it felt like it was an Advanced Maths class. He was about 10 minutes into the class when suddenly he slapped his head and said he forgot to give us a written test.

You can imagine the shock that all of us had. A test? We even started the first chapter. Almost like sensing our fears, he laughed and said that it was just competency test to sort of see how we would do in the class. I was already cursing him but in a good enlightenment way. But before we started the test, he begin to explain about the course and the modules that we were forced to learn. Crash course to the world of Cisco. I felt like I was stuck in a HOOD movie with all the weird (network actually!) lingo goin on. Among the things that he explained was about the fees for the exams. It’s like nearly RM600 just for a single paper. Talk about a ripoff. On top of that we would need to cramp about 6 months worth of subjects into just less than a few weeks. Cool eh? Like cutting your wrist and just letting yourself bleed while timing how long it takes for you to drop into your own pool of blood. Cruel but true.

Me and the other unfortunate ppl have been drawn into a really dim situation. How the hell could we cramp a course that would normally take about 6 months to complete within a few weeks? I’m praying hard for a miracle like maybe Cisco had a good side by giving all of us free certs. LOL. Big wish I guess.

I always wonder how did these so-call experts came up with the price tag? And on top of that they say it’s affordable for students. Hello, newsflash, ppl from other parts of the world like us don’t really enjoy having a big currency…Hmm, the world’s current economy affairs sucks but hey it’ been like that since man became obssesed with money. I guess Cisco is an example of how corporations make their money by over-charging just for a paper. What has the world come to? Peace!

The Sandpiper

August 26th, 2005 by insidethemindofcx

I know this is not my blog but I thought this would be nice for all of you to read. Enjoy, K!

The Sandpiper by Robert Peterson

She was six years old when I first met her on the beach near where I live. I drive to this beach, a distance of three or four miles, whenever the world begins to close in on me. She was building a sandcastle or something and looked up, her eyes as blue as the sea.

"Hello," she said.

I answered with a nod, not really in the mood to bother with a small child.

"I’m building," she said. 

"I see that. What is it?" I asked, not really caring.

"Oh, I don’t know, I just like the feel of sand."

That sounds good, I thought, and slipped off my shoes. A sandpiper glided by.

"That’s a joy," the child said.

"It’s a what?"

"It’s a joy. My mama says sandpipers come to bring us joy."

The bird went gliding down the beach. Good-bye joy, I muttered to myself, hello pain, and turned to walk on.   I was depressed, my life seemed completely out of balance. 

"What’s your name?" She wouldn’t give up.

"Robert," I answered. "I’m Robert Peterson." 

"Mine’s Wendy… I’m six."  "Hi, Wendy."  She giggled. "You’re funny".

In spite of my gloom, I laughed too and walked on. Her musical giggle followed me.

"Come again, Mr. P," she called. "We’ll have another happy day." 

After a few days of a group of unruly Boy Scouts, PTA meetings, and an ailing mother. The sun was shining one morning as I took my hands out of the dishwater. I need a sandpiper, I said to myself, gathering up my coat.

The ever-changing balm of the seashore awaited me. The breeze was chilly but I strode along, trying to recapture the serenity I needed. 

"Hello, Mr. P," she said. "Do you want to play?" 

"What did you have in mind?" I asked, with a twinge of annoyance.

"I don’t know, you say." 

"How about charades?"  I asked sarcastically.

The tinkling laughter burst forth again. "I don’t know what that is."   

"Then let’s just walk."

Looking at her, I noticed the delicate fairness of her face. "Where do you live?" I asked.

"Over there." She pointed toward a row of summer cottages.

Strange, I thought, in winter.

"Where do you go to school?" "I don’t go to school. Mommy says we’re on vacation."

She chattered little girl talk as we strolled up the beach, but my mind was on other things. When I left for home, Wendy said it had been a happy day. Feeling surprisingly better, I smiled at her and agreed.

Three weeks later, I rushed to my beach in a state of near panic. I was in no mood to even greet Wendy. I thought I saw her mother on the porch and felt like demanding she keep her child at home.

"Look, if you don’t mind," I said crossly when Wendy caught up with me, "I’d rather be alone today."  She seemed unusually pale and out of breath.

"Why?" she asked.

I turned to her and shouted, "Because my mother died!" and thought, My God, why was I saying this to a little child?

"Oh," she said quietly, "then this is a bad day."

"Yes," I said, "and yesterday and the day before and–oh, go away!" 

"Did it hurt?" she inquired. 

"Did what hurt?" I was exasperated with her, with myself. 

"When she died?"

"Of course it hurt!" I snapped, misunderstanding, wrapped up in myself. I strode off.

A month or so after that, when I next went to the beach, she wasn’t there. Feeling guilty, ashamed and admitting to myself I missed her, I went up to the cottage after my walk and knocked at the door. A drawn looking young woman with honey-colored hair opened the door.

"Hello," I said, "I’m Robert Peterson. I missed your little girl today and wondered where she was."

"Oh yes, Mr. Peterson, please come in. Wendy spoke of you so much. I’m afraid I allowed her to bother you. If she was a nuisance, please, accept my apologies." 

"Not at all — she’s a delightful child." I said, suddenly realizing that I meant what I had just said. 

"Wendy died last week, Mr. Peterson. She had leukemia. Maybe she didn’t tell you."

Struck dumb, I groped for a chair. I had to catch my breath

"She loved this beach so when she asked to come, we couldn’t say no. She seemed so much better here and had a lot of what she called happy days. But the last few weeks, she declined rapidly…" Her voice faltered, "She left something for you … if only I can find it. Could you wait a moment while I look?" 

I nodded stupidly, my mind racing for something to say to this lovely young woman. She handed me a smeared envelope with "MR. P" printed in bold childish letters. Inside was a drawing in bright crayon hues — a yellow beach, a blue sea, and a brown bird.

Underneath was carefully printed: A SANDPIPER TO BRING YOU JOY. 

Tears welled up in my eyes and a heart that had almost forgotten to love opened wide. I took Wendy’s mother in my arms. "I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry, I’m so sorry," I muttered over and over, and we wept together. The precious little picture is framed now and hangs in my study. Six words — one for each year of her life — that speak to me of harmony, courage, and undemanding love. A gift from a child with sea blue eyes and hair the color of sand — who taught me the gift of love.

NOTE: This is a true story sent out by Robert Peterson.   It happened over 20 years ago and the incident changed his life forever.  It serves as a reminder to all of us that we need to take time to enjoy living and life and each other. The price of hating other human beings is loving oneself less. Life is so complicated, the hustle and bustle of everyday traumas can make us lose focus about what is truly important or what is only a momentary setback or crisis.  This week,  be sure to give your loved ones an extra hug, and by all means, take a moment…even if it is only ten seconds, to stop and smell the roses. 

It came from a heart and it’s returning to all of your hearts, dear readers. Spread this story if you feel it could make a difference. Trust me, it does. ;-)

A new Aim

August 26th, 2005 by insidethemindofcx

I know this might be a bit suicidal but I’m goin to try the impossible…..r u reading this…keep on goin…….go….go….go…..go…..I am goin to try to break the record of farting the most during the MCSE and CNAP exams….Muhahahahaha…:P…..Just to make sure u guys will stay glued to my blogs. Kekeke! Chill out….have a bone!

CNAP or CISCO Training…

August 26th, 2005 by insidethemindofcx

Call me crazy but this is the truth. Besides MCSE, i’m also taking CNAP which is a Cisco paper. It starts tomorrow and the exam is in October. Tough cookie here, ppl. A lot of cracking to do but it won’t happen to the paper but to me mostly. I can foresee it. I may look smart but I’m not…this networking papers are making a point by making me irreversibly nuts. I am praying hard to GOD that this paper won’t kill me in the process. Wish me luck, k? Pls?

MCSE Updates!

August 26th, 2005 by insidethemindofcx

Opppss…been bz since the last blog that I did. It’s a first that I have been this bz and SCARED! Nvr thought that a networking subject would be quite complicated. Today signifies the end of a course and now remains about 6 more courses to go b4 I can be successfully be bestowed with an MCSE Cert. Really not good abt the first coming exam for this week’s paper. The weird part is it’s on Win XP Pro. How pathetic can I be?

Doubts are clouding my vision of knowledge. Could I have lost it? Arghhhhhh! Maybe I need a break on this weekend. Maybe I should go out for a jog or perhaps a one day GAMES EXTRAVAGANZA…..hmmm, the latter choice seems more tempting.

PS: If u know abt my problem, GOD, pls pls pls help me get thru this. Amin!

First Day of MCSE!

August 22nd, 2005 by insidethemindofcx

Felt like dying today! Arrived late to the class around 10 minutes. Nearly hit a motorcyclist and a car. Talk about expert driving. I suck when I’m in a hurry. "Note to self : Don’t accept any emergency driving responsiblity under any circumstances except if I’m the only person who can drive". The class trainer was a nice Indian fella. Quite friendly. Throughout the whole day, I was trying to figure out how much did they pay him to be that nice.

Hmmm, when he opened his mouth to explain about the MCSE BOOTCAMP, I nearly fell asleep. God, networking is SO NOT my lingo. But I am taking this course so I would have something tangible to show to the rest of the world. Besides, I get paid to study so it’s cool. Can you imagine I would have to cramp up to 7 subjects within 2 and a half months. Talk about a major crashcourse. It’s like learning to handle an airplane within a week. from my opinion, the first day is not too bad. I learned a lot of new things more than I want to admit. Damn, I had no idea I was so dim-witted when it comes to network technologies. Better brush up on my communication technologies topics. MCSE Certification, Here I Come!

Someone Close

August 19th, 2005 by insidethemindofcx

No matter how many self-help books that I read or even hear from others, it does not even start to explain how hectic and complex when it comes to matters of our hearts. Sometimes we think that we might find something that interests us but 5 minutes later, the feeling just dissappears. Like it was sucked up by this giant vacuum cleaner. Hmmmm…

It still hurts when someone we care leaves us. It still makes us sick or even angry for things that were not meant to happen. But shit happens. We can do anyting about it. All we can do is try our best. Our best? It could also mean the last for us or even that special someone.

Final Day of Teambuilding!

August 19th, 2005 by insidethemindofcx

Phew! Finally the last day of a great team-building activity which was done by PSDC. I guess I needed that to rethink of how I react to certain situations and boy, the last activity we did was an EYE OPENER! I definitely went beyond normal acts that I didnt though I would do. All done just to complete that gruelling activity — (Tower of Babel). Around 15 Feet in height and we had to climb over the wall. It took us awhile to plan it out. Dangerous and complex could not even sum the amount of energy that my group put into that activity. The best part of it, I was the last person to go up since I had to lift everyone up since the biggest guy in the group had an injury on his leg.

It was an experince of a lifetime when me and another teammate had to carry this plus-sized girl. Man! Was she heavy. I mean no offense but it was a like carrying 3 times my own weight. LOL! It hurts when we tried to lift her but the pain reminded me that in a situation like that, all you can see is the objective. By hook or by crook, you do it to your very best. To keep it short, we managed to carry her up but she was too nervous to go through it all the way so she opted to give up. Oh well, I guess not all of us are that strong. Mentally.