PhD DOTA & CS-holic’s journey

I’m officially on the cocoa study. My BP was ard 147/80 which I found out is not too good. LOL. I guess coffee is not GOOD…(see how I stress on the uppercase). On Monday, I was fixed with a 24 hr BP monitor. It was portable but really intrusive coz I had to walk ard with a pipe sticking out of the back of my shirt. It was so embarassing…I realized it was that bad when I stepped out of the building after getting it fixed. A few guys were behind me and they were talking abt it. One of them said it was my gas pipe. GAS PIPE? Ughhh….Getting $250 for it is seriously low…LOL….$100 for the humiliation that I will face during the study. Anyway, today is the first day of my cocoa supplement drink. Was given a 3 weeks supply of it. Not bad. Pure cocoa heaven. Hmm….I guess I will be  a cocoa addict after this study.  8 weeks without coffee or anything with flavinol….A big problem for a guy like me. Oh well, I need the cash.

COCOA AWAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

Always wondered how life would be without COFFEE. Just went cold turkey for the sake of science. Not suppose to eat loads of stuff while I’m being studied. LOL….sounds like I’m on a display or something. Not sure how life would be without COFFEE. Pretty dull I guess. I remembered when I drank COFFEE, the world always seem a bit more colourful. The word is being HIGH. Weird but hey, everyone has some quirky aspects in them, so mine is COFFEE. Back when I was a high time COFFEE drinker, I enjoy loads of cup of COFFEE. A bit of Tall Black, a few Cafe Latte, some Mocha and finally, a few shots of Expresso. I would be so HIGH it would seem things would be ok but I guess it’s just for awhile. Nothing more than that.

It’s the same as a junkie would feel. I’m a self-professed COFFEE ADDICT. It’s bad…I know but I can’t help it. Hopefully I would be a better person after this study ends. A more cheerful person and maybe a bit more matured.

To all my dear frens,

This story was created by a fren of mine who was so bored out of his mind coz u know being a "guard" is boring sometimes. So what I have written here is just what I thought was the movtivation that drove him to write it. Hehe…sorry for the inconvinence. And just my thoughts, maybe lvl 2 does have it’s own happy ghost there…waiting in the dark to scare the shit out of the residents there. It’s a bit cool to think that there’s something there waiting for us, eh?

Nvr thought I would hear such insident happening on lvl 2 since there’s a self proclaimed "Guard" sleeping there every night on the 3 seater couch. (Tahu-tahu saja la). But hmm, probably the thing that was seen could be something out of the imagination. Not sure. I guess we would have to see it for ourselves.

"It costs so much to be a full human being that there are very few who
have the enlightenment, or the courage, to pay the price." - Morris West

Full human being…how does it feel to be a full human being? And I always thought that I am a complete human. But complete humans wouldn’t feel so powerless among fellow humans. The same DNA makeup, same body functions and same brain functions so I guess I shouldn’t be scared of them. I would have to pay the price in order to be a full human being. But what would be the price? I’m still asking around…

Hmmm, my last blog update was 15th May 2006 and lo behold am in Adelaide now. Studying. Been here for the past 2 months ++ and enjoying it every bit. But I would love to say that everything is hey ok but it’s not. Irony of life just farted right in my face, leaving me to suffocate here in little Adelaide. I’m finding it a bit hard now to cope with my studies. Am not blaming it on the environment or the ppl here (although I know I could since this is my own blog, BUGGER OFF!) but the fault lies entirely with me.

Programming is not as easy as I thought it would be and I’m beginning to see a dark passage way instead of the normal lighted ones (you know those high powered torchlights that would kill an idiot who is stupid enough to hit it against their head). I so need help but where can sought one out? I tried forums but hell, ppl there can be mean. Ughh…and to top it all, I’m having thoughts of changing my entire course to something along the lines of Mass Comm. Weird huh? I made the move from Multimedia to IT and now Mass Comm? I guess what I’m feeling is depression at its worse. And the crappy assignments arent making it better. Am not sure what my sponsors would feel like especially the School’s Dean. She would so get her "tudung-in-knots" when she hears abt my progress.

Hmmm..how I wished life was a bit simpler. But Sagi’s always have the most interesting "twist" to their life. Oh well, better plough on to at least pass this sem. Pray for me…

For the past 3 days, I had no access to my PC coz my faithful Samsung monitor went RAMBO on me. Oh well, after 4 years of hardwork, who wouldn’t. Hehe. Mum’s yacking saying that it KAPUT coz of the endless midnite gaming session n chatting that I had. I did that more in college than I do now. Well, watever happen, I was 3 days without a PC. An idea struck me, trying to see the how many days I could last without a PC. Interesting since I had nothing to lose except my email space. At first it felt calming. U know like having nothign to worry but within 4 hours I was sms-ing my frens whether they had an extra monitor. I’m suprised I did that becoz I thought I was not hooked to the PC. Boy, was I wrong. Even while sleeping, I could imagine playing FEAR. Pathetic, I know.

Alas, I caved in after 3 days of no PC-activity, I went out and got a new monitor. Cost me less than RM400 but it was good. The feeling that I’m having now while I tell this story is priceless. Like the Citibank ad. Hehe.

I didn’t realize it that a RM0.30 price rise in oil would be THAT bad. But yeah it was BAD, today I nearly got ripped off by a mamak in Penang. I was asked to pay RM1.20 for a single, miserable, tasteless roti that I think would have cost me ard RM0.60. But no, that was what I was charged. Well, I pretty much blew my lid off. (Bad hair day trauma!) I demanded him to reduce it. I said I didn’t thought that a lousy roti would cost me that much. I would not pay for that crap. And you know what he did, he shouted back. Somemore saying that everything is expensive nowadays. That is just a pack of bull. Prices do increase but not up to the extent for a roti to go that high. It’s f**kin insane! I was determined to get that roti for free. It was a big commotion. I didn’t know that a roti issue would attract a crowd. Everyone was like trying to listen to what is this dude saying to the mamak la. Typical Malaysian! Semua pun mau tau…:P

I didn’t care about them coz the guy just called his other "associates". Another mamak came and said that it’s the standard price now. I said my foot is a standard size, your roti is just not. It’s not fair for me to pay for that price just for a single roti. I just turned out and walked out. The mamak suddenly blurted out that the drink wasn’t paid yet. Dumb old me forgot about the drink. So with a "kuih pau" face, I walked back and just asked him how much for the stupid teh tarik. RM0.60. I said fine and I paid him that. Walked out with my other RM0.60 intact. I guess it seems dumb but trust me the more you just ignore this, the worse this situation would happen. I mean like column in the newspaper in The Star a few days back. It doesn’t matter whether we’re considered a difficult customer. It’s our right to demand if we’re not satisfied with a price. Malaysia has just gotten a bit more expensive ppl. Time to wake up and smell the reality of it.

The current news this days consist of ppl being admitted into hospitals. Some even died. Thats how strong this so-called super mosquitoe. It hasn’t gotten this bad since years but I guess all of us had it coming. Being negligble abt cleanliness and thinking this is Malaysia, what’s the worst that could happen. Ughh, big time Aedes outbreak. We’ve gone thru one disaster after another. Politically, environmentally and now health wise. What’s next? Hmmm, maybe myself and the rest of you shouldn’t ask that question. Just take it a day at a time. Who knows maybe God will be gracious on us, puny humans.

Today, I was a 100 years old. Not in terms of real age but it was cause by the sport activities that I have done over the past few days. Man, I nvr thought my body would ache so much. Just a few games of badminton and I’m like a sushi with too much wasabi on top. Burning up real fast. The worst part was that my legs especially my inner thigh’s muscle felt like being ripped apart and glued back together again. Tried walking, jumping and even massaging but it stil felt the same.

Limping like an idiot while walking around KOMTAR. GOD! Passed an old guy with a walking stick and I had thoughts of stealing the stick and using it. Yea, yea…I have a sick mind. Tell me about it. Serious, I want to know more.